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July 2009 
My Gold!
Posted on Jan 8th, 2007
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Jill
Jill
“At its essence, art is an alchemical process. By practicing art, by living artfully, we realize our vein of gold. What I refer to as "the vein of gold," Egyptians referred to as "the golden ray." It is the individual, indisputable, indestructible connection to the divine.” Julia Cameron
I have been absorbing changes and growing by leaps and bounds in the course of having written my book. I now sit with the prayer drawings and diligently attend to each one, plumbing greater depths of my being and unfolding miracles I had not known were possible.
This book of mine holds chapters of the things that I value. I have a chapter on Hope, Peace, Wisdom, Charity, Courage, Integrity….. And so on. I’ve discovered in the light of written reason, that I have knit together my intense journey of accountability to the things that I hold to be true.
It has made me a stronger person and cemented my soul in the nourishment of love. I noticed radical changes happening as I began this process. When the speed of what I was doing increased, greater changes happened and I found myself stretching beyond what I thought was possible. And then I broke.
It was a funny moment in retrospect because the thing that broke were the chains that I also would call ego. I needed to wiriness the death of my own ego and the things that contribute to make me feel small and alone and separate.
And then the work began. I wrote 38 chapters in a short amount of time. I went from one to the next, and radical change began to blossom. I felt the energy build for lasting, life-long changes. My heart broke open and I found myself unafraid to love without expectation of return. I found myself less afraid to lose that which I loved. I discovered the gold pouring out from me and life has simply become more beautiful in blooming bud of my potential.
On days that are painful and hard, I have found peace. There was a moment several weeks ago when I allowed something in me to die. I wept. And then I opened my arms and wondered what was to come next from the Divine. Each day offers me a greater array of sunshine and I am truly understanding the limitless expansion of the Universe.
I have been absorbing changes and growing by leaps and bounds in the course of having written my book. I now sit with the prayer drawings and diligently attend to each one, plumbing greater depths of my being and unfolding miracles I had not known were possible.
This book of mine holds chapters of the things that I value. I have a chapter on Hope, Peace, Wisdom, Charity, Courage, Integrity….. And so on. I’ve discovered in the light of written reason, that I have knit together my intense journey of accountability to the things that I hold to be true.
It has made me a stronger person and cemented my soul in the nourishment of love. I noticed radical changes happening as I began this process. When the speed of what I was doing increased, greater changes happened and I found myself stretching beyond what I thought was possible. And then I broke.
It was a funny moment in retrospect because the thing that broke were the chains that I also would call ego. I needed to wiriness the death of my own ego and the things that contribute to make me feel small and alone and separate.
And then the work began. I wrote 38 chapters in a short amount of time. I went from one to the next, and radical change began to blossom. I felt the energy build for lasting, life-long changes. My heart broke open and I found myself unafraid to love without expectation of return. I found myself less afraid to lose that which I loved. I discovered the gold pouring out from me and life has simply become more beautiful in blooming bud of my potential.
On days that are painful and hard, I have found peace. There was a moment several weeks ago when I allowed something in me to die. I wept. And then I opened my arms and wondered what was to come next from the Divine. Each day offers me a greater array of sunshine and I am truly understanding the limitless expansion of the Universe.
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Hi Jill,
I was just catching up on your posts and wanted to let you know how much I have enjoyed them and how excited I am about your book. Your honesty and self reflection are a thing of beauty.
~David
i ditto david!
And I thank you both. Honesty and self-reflection (I think) will set us all free. LOL Thank you very much. Both of you!
Are you guys getting any of this snow??? Gosh what a winter… I have been doing the exercises in Julia's “The Artists Way” and I am now in love with my Inner Artist Child-not in an ego unhealthy way-but a way of seeing how magical-powerful-loving-amazing she is-and she's a part of me-WOW!! I do love creating and I love you for inspiring me with the natal chart you did for me and your blog posts… many blessings upon you sister..
Katrina
Hi Katrina,
I am not sure when you posted this comment and think you're talking about last week's snow up north of here. What we got yesterday was a reminder that it is winter. LOL
I'm so delighted that you are exploring and honoring the artist in you. I'm really glad that you found value in my honor of looking at your chart. And I value your input and your insights.
Jill