COWBOY UP!

This past week I was talking with a dear friend of mine.  I was telling her that I was struggling to shift something.  That I needed to let go of the hurt I was feeling around something and I struggled.  She told me to just suck it up and do it.  She also reminded me that I have the capacity to redirect energy and transform the world around me in that process.

And so.  I'm gonna Cowboy up. 

I noticed it requires me letting go of the fear that can chain me.  It requires an expansion of a tender heart.  And it requires a mindful consideration of each step ahead.

It is too easy to simply grapple with the idea of change and not afford yourself the opportunity.  It is relatively effortless to acknowledge a grave wound as though that exempts you from accountability to your own behavior or attitudes.  And yet, that simply structures more of the same for your life.

I'm tired of being afraid that the things I value and love and cherish will be swayed or tainted by some outside source.

And so I choose to "Cowboy Up" and do what I gotta do to clean up my stuff.  To truly let go of the fear that can ride me and hold myself accountable to this change.  Otherwise, I simply invite myself to continue walking a wounded journey and that just isn't me.

I care too much about the potential ahead of me.  I care too much about the connections that surround me.  And I find.... In a very gratifying moment... that I care far too much about myself to be less that I am capable of being.